PART FOUR - LIFE AT MOOR HOUSE
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
My Past Returns
Was this what God wanted me to do with my life? I felt afraid, thinking that I might not be able to say "no" to St. John.
"St. John, don't choose me!" I cried. But I knew that St. John would not understand my feelings. [-----1-----], no matter how bad it was.
"God wants you to be a missionary's wife--my wife," he continued. "Trust in Him, Jane. Marry me, to please God."
"St. John, I can't do that. I can't marry you and go to India. I'm not strong enough." I said desperately.
"I know how hard you can work, Jane. You can help me with the India women, and teach English to many students." [-----2-----]. I believed I could live in India with St. John, because the work would be rewarding and interesting. "Yes, I could do that. But I know he doesn't love me, and yet he still asks me to marry him! Why?" I thought. After a while, I said.
"St. John, I will go with you to India, but as your cousin, not as your wife."
He shook his head. "No, Jane. As my cousin, you could marry some other man any time and leave me. I need a wife, who will obey me and stay with my until death."
Even though I did not want to go, I felt St. John's power over me already. "I could go with you to India as a friend, but [-----3-----]. I will always give my heart to God, but you don't want it, St. John. You don't love me, and I don't love you," I said to him gently.
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答案:
1、If he thought God was telling hime to do something, he always did it
如果他认为是上帝叫他做什么事,他都会去做。
2、I thought for a while, walking next to him and saying nothing
我想了一会儿,走到他身边,什么也没说。
3、I can't give up my freedom by marrying you
我不能因为嫁给你而放弃我的自由。
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Vocabulary Focus
to please God:为取悦上帝。