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I cannot complain about my life, I look down at my hands and they have wrinkled, I look at my reflection in a window on the street and it's beauty has faded... but my memory hasn't faded, for hours I can think of my life... replay images and videos over and over, so it doesn't bother me when time ticks slowly or quickly, for I have already achieved what most spend their lives trying to achieve. Few ever achieve it... but all that do will cherish it, be lost in it and above all never, never forget it.
I was in love with the most amazing man in the world. When we were in love time seemed like eternity, every second spent together wasn't wasted. Yet some day I knew it would end. Letting go was the hardest thing in the world, the only thing that let me do it was my love for him, true love is when you will do anything to make the other happy, and that was my great sacrifice, I knew he would want me happy.
For years I was afraid to look into another man's eyes, for I was afraid to see yours staring back... I was afraid to laugh because I wouldn't be laughing with you... I was afraid nothing would ever feel as good again, that I would call out your name instead of his. Years and years I was afraid but I'm not any longer, I have accepted the reality that you will be there forever, in my mind, engraved into my soul.
I look at my hands again and realize that if you could love my hands, it matters no that they wrinkle. When I look into the mirror, I realize you did not love me because I was beautiful, but was beautiful because you loved me. As I kneel at the headstone that bears his name, I wish nothing more than to spend eternity with him... the world goes dark, for my wish has become true. 
I have lost... and because I lost I waited but nothing came, I feared but there was nothing to fear, I grieved until my tears had completely dried up, I tried then to rejoice, but I could not. And I realized time stops for no one; Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity. Because I have loved I will spend eternity with him, when my body is found at his grave, it will be a shock for no one... It was our love that brought us together.
