With the type of injury I had
恢复的可能性并不大
I was able to accept it a little bit more although like I said even later on, a month later
我也就慢慢接受了现实尽管可能一个月之后
I still asked myself if I made the right decision if I halted the recovery but ultimately what I ended up telling myself
我还会问自己是否做出了正确的选择我的自然康复进程是否中断但最终我告诉自己
and what I ended up understanding was that had I gained something back that I don't have right now?
我最后是这样理解的我现在缺失的功能是否得到了恢复?
it would probably have been let's say, one more level I would have maybe been, look at T6 instead of T5 or I would have maybe been able to move one of my toes
确实有所恢复 例如提高了一级我可能会觉得基本功能从T5升到了T6或者我的一根脚趾可以动了
Those are the things that really have much value to me that don't add to my quality of life
这些变化对我来说至关重要但对我生活质量的提高没有什么帮助
I really don't know what I would do with one more level or just one moving toe
基本功能提高一个级别或可以一根脚趾我不太清楚到底有什么作用
So to compare that with what I have instead of being a part of consenting to participate in the trial
所以相比于获得这些轻微的改善通过参与临床试验而成为宏大工程的一份子
it's so much bigger, so much bigger like I said, just looking at the bigger picture
我认为后者显得更了不起 正如我前面说到的 应该从大局出发
moving my big toe isn't as important as having been able to participate in the trial
动一根脚趾的意义比不上参加临床试验的意义
and give something back and hopefully move the field forward I don't remember what else you are asking
比不上回报社会的意义也比不上推动这个事业前进的意义我记不清你的其他问题了