On Monsieur’s Departure
On Monsieur’s Departure
I grieve and dare not show my discontent,
I love and yet am forced to seem to hate,
I do, yet dare not say I ever meant,
I seem stark mute but inwardly do prate.
I am and not, I freeze and yet am burned,
Since from myself another self I turned.
My care is like my shadow in the sun,
Follows me flying, flies when pursue it,
Stands and lies by me, doth what I have done.
His too familiar care doth make me rue it.
No means I find to rid him from my breast,
Till by the end of things it be suppressed.
Some gentler passion slide into my mind,
For I am soft and made of melting snow;
Or be more cruel, Love, and so be kind.
Let me or float or sink, be high or low.
Or let me live with some more sweet content,
Or die and so forget what love are meant.
在他离别后
吕志鲁译
我忧伤却不敢流露怨愤,
我挚爱却只能强装痛恨,
我有意却只能谎称无情;
心里有千言万语,
口中却唖然无声;
我已死, 我还生;
我是烈火,我是寒冰;
只因我把自我分作两半,
再也无法恢复我的原形。
心中的牵挂,
如影随形;
我跟它逃,
我逃它跟;
事事都来搀和,
时时纠缠不清;
对他过多的思念,
使我懊恼烦闷;
永世难以把他从心底驱走,
除非就此把一切了结干净。
爱神啊,
爱神!
请给我心里装一些甜蜜的情意,
因为我柔弱如融雪天成;
要么对我更加残忍,
要么对我大发善心;
让我升天或者入地,
让我或浮或沉;
让我死,以便我忘却爱的真谛;
让我生,就该多一些爱的温馨。
伊丽莎白一世(Queen Elizabeth 1533—1603) 四百年前的这位英国女王是开创英国繁盛的一代明君,是 “大英帝国”的奠基人,她运用自己的机巧和才智,摆脱死囚的绝境并取得王位,似乎是英国历史上的第一女强人。然而她写的这首诗表明这位终身未婚的“童贞女王”是世俗道德规范重压下的弱者。这首诗并非附庸风雅之作,而是诗人发自心底的爱的呼喊。该诗通篇都是内心矛盾的碰撞和情感世界的苦斗,它折射出四百年前 英国社会转型期的特殊体制以及伦理道德等现象。