I went to the beach and looked out at that sea,
我跑去了海边,看着那个海,
and I thought I'm going to swim until I haven't got the energy to swim back.
我想我要游泳,直到我没有体力游回来为止
I was so low. I was shouting at the kids, getting angry with my wife.
我情绪低落,对孩子大喊大叫,对我的妻子生气。
I begged her to leave me. I felt alone, helpless.
我求她离开我,我感到孤独、无奈。
You see, I was taught that soldiers don't discuss feelings.
你知道,士兵被教导不要聊个人感受。
So I walked into the waves.
我走进海浪里,
I can still feel the water around my feet,
还能感受脚下的海水。
and suddenly I had this vision of my girls.
突然我的女儿出现在我的眼前。
They saved me. I stopped, walked home and got help.
他们救了我,我停了下来,走回家,去获得帮助。