But he thought: I can't risk it, she is mine, can't give her a chance not to belong to me, can't let her think she doesn't need me, she must need me. Oh God, I have to have her.
但是他想:我不能冒这个险,她是我的;我决不能放手,决不能让她不属于我,决不能让她以为她不需要我;她一定需要我。哦,上帝,我必须得到她!
But her apartment was empty. Somehow in the hours overnight, she had packed - by herself -and moved by herself. The rooms were now impersonal; their cold stillness could not respond when he fell to the floor and sobbed.
然而她的公寓空空如也。她一定是在头天夜里花了几个小时打好行装——自己动手——独自离去。此刻,房间里不再有任何生命的气息。他倒地啜泣,回答他的只有一片阴冷的寂静。
By the middle of August he had heard nothing from Amy. He went often to the park but avoided looking for the white bird.
到了8月中旬,他依然没收到艾米的任何消息。他时常去公园,但总是小心翼翼地不去寻找那只小白鸟。
September came and had almost gone before he finally received a letter. The handwriting was without question hers. The postmark was that of a city many miles distant. He tore open the envelope and at first thought it was empty. Then he noticed a single white feather had fallen from it. In his mind, the white bird rose in flight and its wings let fly one feather. Were it not for the feather, no one would have known that the white bird had ever been. Thus he knew Amy would not be back, and it was many hours before he let the feather drop out of his hand.
9月不觉来临,又即将悄然逝去,他终于收到了另一封熟悉的来信。无疑是她的笔迹。邮戳标明寄自另一个遥远的城市。他撕开信封,最初还以为里面空无一物,随后才发现有一根从信封中飘落的洁白羽毛。他的脑海里幻化出那只小白鸟,它振翅飞翔,一片羽毛从它的翅上抖落。倘若不是鸟儿在离去时留下这片羽毛为证,有谁会知道小白鸟曾经来过?他幡然醒悟:艾米再也不会回来了。不知过了多久,他才让那根羽毛从手中悄然滑落。