I followed the trail as long as my anger at myself pushed me forward. As that started to ebb, I slowed. A few drops of moisture trickled down from the canopy above me, but I couldn't be certain if it was beginning to rain or if it was simply pools left over from yesterday, held high in the leaves above me, slowly dripping their way back to the earth. A recently fallen tree — I knew it was recent because it wasn't entirely carpeted in moss — rested against the trunk of one of her sisters, creating a sheltered little bench just a few safe feet off the trail. I stepped over the ferns and sat carefully, making sure my jacket was between the damp seat and my clothes wherever they touched, and leaned my hooded head back against the living tree.
我的怒气推着我往前走,于是我一直沿着小路走去。直到愤怒开始褪去,我才放慢了脚步。点点水滴从我头顶上的天穹潺潺而下,但我不能肯定是开始下雨了,还是纯粹是昨天雨后留在我头上高处的树叶丛中的积水,正在慢慢地滴落下来,完成它们归于尘土的旅程。一棵新倒伏下来的大树——我认为它很新是因为它还没有完全被苔藓覆盖住——斜倚在她的姐妹们的树干上,形成了一个掩蔽的小长椅,离小径只有安全的几英尺高。我踩过一片蕨类植物,小心地坐下来,确保我的夹克隔在了那个潮湿的座椅和相应的衣服之间。然后,我把戴着兜帽的头靠在那棵活着的树上。
This was the wrong place to have come. I should have known, but where else was there to go? The forest was deep green and far too much like the scene in last night's dream to allow for peace of mind. Now that there was no longer the sound of my soggy footsteps, the silence was piercing. The birds were quiet, too, the drops increasing in frequency, so it must be raining above. The ferns stood higher than my head, now that I was seated, and I knew someone could walk by on the path, three feet away, and not see me.
我来错地方了,我应该早就知道的,但我还能去哪里呢?这个森林如此苍翠,太像昨晚的梦境了,我没法让自己的心绪保持宁静。既然这里已经不会再有我沉闷的脚步声了,这片沉寂就更加显得讽刺。鸟儿也安静下来了。滴水逐渐变得频繁起来,所以森林上空一定在下雨。那片蕨类植物高得比我还高,因为我是坐着的,所以我知道即使有人从三英尺外的小径上经过,也不会看见我的。
Here in the trees it was much easier to believe the absurdities that embarrassed me indoors. Nothing had changed in this forest for thousands of years, and all the myths and legends of a hundred different lands seemed much more likely in this green haze than they had in my clear-cut bedroom.
《暮光之城》
当你深爱着准备取你性命的人时,你已没有选择的余地了。倘若生命是你所能给予自己挚爱的人的一切,你又怎么可能会不放手呢?对于贝拉来说,无可救药地爱上爱德华之后,就像是在越来越危险的现实中编织了幻想与梦魇。她是加入这黑暗却充满诱惑的世界,还是追求一个全然的人类生命,不管她作出什么样的抉择,都将不可避免地牵动着两个族群的命运。