So, that gets us to the second point, which is the only truth, I won't take too much time, I will just try to keep it short.
所以,这就到了第二点,也是唯一的真理,我不会花太多时间,我会尽量简短。
I figured something, I figured that something, seemingly big things, were not that big once I got them.
我明白了,有些看似很大的东西,一旦我得到了,发现其实没有那么大。
And looking back in the past, I realized that maybe smaller things were way bigger.
回顾过去,我意识到也许更小的东西要“大”得多。
And there was one thing that was missing in my life, that was the cause of this illusion.
我的生活中遗漏了一件事,那就是产生这种错觉的原因。
And that thing that was missing was NOW.
而那件失踪的东西是“当下”。
I was all of these years, just I was obsessed about what's going to happen.
这些年来,我一直对即将发生的事情耿耿于怀。
I used to draw those flow charts that we're taught in schools.
我曾经画过我们在学校里学到的那些流程图。
If this happens, I'll do that.
如果发生这种情况,我会那样做的。
And six months from now, I'll be here.
六个月后,我会在这里。
So, I want it to be in control.
所以,我希望一切都在掌控之中。
I was so obsessed about my future, I was taking the entire responsibility about the past, but all I was doing was frequently swinging from past to future, not living in actual sense.
我是如此痴迷于我的未来,承担着过去的全部责任,但我所做的只是频繁地在过去和未来之间摇摆,而不是真正意义上的生活。
Well, I also figured that when I perform on stage or in front of the camera, I'm so much excited.
我还发现,当我在舞台上或在镜头前表演时,我会非常兴奋。
I am so much interested.
我真的很感兴趣。
I was paying so much attention that there was no room to think about the future or the past.
我太专注了,以至于没有空间去思考未来或过去。
I was just there in the moment; I was alive in true sense when I was performing.
我当时就在那里;当我表演的时候,我才是真正的活着。
And for the first time, trust me, in a long time, I understood the true meaning of success, which was not money plus recognition, but it was NOW plus excitement.
相信我,在很长一段时间里,我第一次明白了成功的真正意义,它不是金钱加上认可,而是“现在”加上兴奋。
So, here I am right now, five years down the line, money, and fame although still could not earn back their reputation in my life.
所以,我现在在这里,五年后,金钱和名声,可能仍然无法在我的生活中重新赢得名誉。
But let me show you one thing, I have much more of them than I had ever planned.
但我告诉你们一件事,我得到了比我计划中更多的东西。
And the best thing, my college, one of the professors was very dear to me, called me recently about asking me to plan this interaction with students.
最好的是,大学里一位对我非常亲近的教授,最近打电话给我,让我计划与学生的互动。
And I very humbly requested that can I get my degree back. And it's happening.
我非常谦虚地请求能不能拿回我的学位。正在进行中了。
And I'm very excited, again.
我又一次感到非常兴奋。
Thank you so much, guys.
非常感谢你们,伙计们。