And two years later, guess what, I got myself my first big break.
两年后,猜猜发生了什么,我得到了我的第一个重大突破。
I was selected for a prime time show on TV.
我被选中参加一个黄金时段的电视节目。
Now hear me out.
现在听我说完。
It was seriously a big break because I started earning, people started recognizing me.
这真的是一个很大的突破,因为我开始赚钱,人们开始认可我。
To be honest, I would deliberately go and roam in all these malls so that people could look at me, smile, ask for my photograph.
老实说,我会故意去这些商场闲逛,这样人们就可以看到我,微笑着,要我的照片。
And I was watching myself on TV for the first time.
我第一次在电视上看到了自己。
You have no idea how it feels for somebody like me to, you know, just looking at me for, and I was looking at myself every day on TV.
你不知道像我这样的人看到电视上的自己是什么感觉,只是盯着看,我每天都在电视上看着自己。
It was a big, big, big high.
那是一个很高很高的位置了。
I also suddenly discovered that I actually had many friends, who were absent all this while, but suddenly they popped up.
我也突然发现,我其实有很多朋友,他们之前一直都不在,但突然他们出现了。
And the show became popular.
这个节目变得很受欢迎。
I was making good money to a point that money stopped being a differentiator in my life.
我赚了一大笔钱,以至于钱在我的生活中不再是一个与众不同的因素。
And I was becoming more and more popular.
我变得越来越受欢迎。
Now I cannot go to all these malls that I was going all alone.
现在我不能一个人去这些购物中心了。
So, I wanted somebody to be with me, to save me.
所以,我想要有人陪在我身边,拯救我。
So, you know what I'm saying?
你知道我在说什么吗?
I bought myself my first dream house.I bought myself my dream car.
我给自己买了第一套梦想中的房子。我给自己买了一辆梦寐以求的车。
And just a note, to you as well, I was getting such female attention that my engineering college friends could only possibly dream of.
顺便说一句,我得到了女性的关注,这是我工科大学的朋友们梦寐以求的。
So, I was having a time of my life.
所以,我度过了我人生中的一段时光。
And then something unusual happened, I got used to everything and I felt cheated.
然后,一些不寻常的事情发生了,我习惯了一切,感觉被骗了。
I stayed with all these dreams for 10 and 15 years of my life.
在我生命中的10到15年里,我一直伴随着所有这些梦想。
I was promised happiness and I was promised success.
我得到了幸福的承诺,我也得到了成功的承诺。
But all these things stayed with me just for a few days.
但所有这些东西只在我身上停留了几天。
And I'm punctuating me because I started from zero money and zero recognition.
我之所以这么说,是因为我一开始没有钱,没有认可。
So, I was not happy. How could that it be?
所以,我并不开心。这怎么可能呢?
I didn't like this version of success.
我不喜欢这个版本的成功。
And the future me, again, was hearing the present me.
而未来的我,再次听到了现在的我。
But this time, I decided otherwise, I would do something else.
但这一次,我决定做一些其他的事情。